Joy and Pain
In Sun and Rain
You’re the same
You Never Let Go
It has been a tough week for me.
My big boy started school. My little boy had a close encounter with a road, at high speed. I’m not good with blood, I’m not good with injuries. I miss my Doctor, I have a friendship with her that meant I could text her with my silly Mummy questions. Finances were stretched. Loneliness moved in. Things have ground to a halt with my husbands work due to outside circumstances. Somethings have been just life circumstances and others – spiritual attack.
I uttered five words for the first time since moving here, and I think I meant them. ‘I want to go home’.
But I know that would be giving up. That would be settling for second best. We want God’s best. He never lets us go.
I need to remember not to let go of Him, and instead of crying inwards and saying it is too hard, I need to cry out and up to Him.