Skin Growing

I’m in the middle of some serious skin growing.  And a lot of it is to do with this blog.

I need thicker skin.  The end.

No, seriously, there is a bit more to it than that.  I don’t know about you, but I blog because it is cheaper than therapy.  I blog because I have things on my mind that I feel called to share.  The good, the bad and the ugly.  I blog because sometimes I’ve been through the hard stuff, and have come out the other end and I can say, with authority, that you can make it too.  I blog sometimes because I’ve made bad decisions and have learnt a lesson.  I blog sometimes because I’ve made good decisions and can see the blessings and benefits and want you to receive this as well.

I don’t blog to criticize.  I don’t blog to emphasize a grass is greener on the other side mentality and I don’t blog to create confrontational situations.  I blog for me, and for you.

The problem is not everyone can see and hear my heart when I write things, and the problem is when people oppose my ideas and thoughts and feel the need to point out these opposing views, then that takes the joy of blogging away from me.  I feel like I’ve struck a few nerves and in doing so, have made a few readers feel the need to defend their opposing views.  Which is fine – but with my skin being so delicate……I hurt.  And I withdraw.  And I feel misunderstood, when it wasn’t my intention.

But I’m learning you see.  I’m learning that the very essence of the gospel is confrontational.  Jesus was misunderstood and ‘by the wise considered a fool’.  God and only God knows my heart’s cries and my sincerest intentions.

And it is to Him I am accountable to.

So – as 2011 ends and 2012 approaches, I’m really working on my skin growing.  I think before I write, and I think before I speak.  I can pray that my words are received with the good intentions I give them – that they are peppered with grace and love – but at the end of the day I have no control over whatever slant that you, the reader gives them.

I pray that my words in 2012 become a real source of encouragement to you.  We’re all in this together.  Let’s help each other get on and do what God has called each of us to do – not to pull apart and criticize little differences in the way I see my world, to the way you see your world.