Our car, ‘Frankie’ (doesn’t everyone name their car?) is facing a bit of an identity crisis at the moment. She’s lashing out with some erratic behaviour. Today her back window wiper started going very randomly. It would wipe and wipe and then stop. And then start-up again and continue, until I pushed the button that is supposed to make it start, to stop it. Something weird going on with the electrics no doubt. Where’s McGyver when you need him?
Along with the crazy window wiping, there’s another indicator playing up. The fuel gauge is showing we have zero gas and the ‘need to fill up’ light is on and the DTE (drive til empty) screen thingy shows up as zero as well.
Now ever since I started driving I have had this crazy fear of running out of petrol/ gas. I can’t explain it – but the thought just petrifies me. To be driving along, and all of a sudden to stop. Just not be able to go any further. And knowing my luck it would be on a busy road, with car full of boys one, two and three. Not my idea of fun.
So to have the fuel gauge playing tricks on me…..not cool.
This time around though, I know I’m ok. I know my husband filled up the car yesterday. I know the gauge was at full first thing this morning. I saw the gauge at full and I saw the receipt from the gas station. I know I didn’t leave a big puddle of gas anywhere earlier today. I know that even though the signs say that poor ‘Frankie’ is empty….I know she’s not.
This got me thinking about the times in our lives when we feel truly empty. We feel like we’ve run out of steam. We’ve had our boat load of physical illness, financial strain, people issues, future worries and past concerns. We are spent. We feel like we could sleep for a week. We feel like we have nothing to offer people. We’re done. We’re past it. We are running on empty.
But here’s the thing……even when our gauge is indicating empty, empty, empty…….we’re not. We have the Holy Spirit, our helper, with us. Always. Even when people let us down, and they will. We have the promise of hope, always. How we FEEL doesn’t change a thing about how HE feels about us, and what HE is able to accomplish in and through us. God IS our ever-present helper.