In my last post I referred to the fact that I now have more people in my life to be my ‘iron’. One of these amazing people is Lindsay, from The Fearless Experiment. This is a new blog that Lindsay has started to show her journey and the journey of some others as they look at what holds them back from living a life of relentless faith….looking at being obedient to God in every area of their lives.
I’m with them. I’m in. I’m committed. I am stepping out of the boat.
I do not want to look back at some years of my life and think I wasted them. I missed opportunities. I wasn’t all I could be.
There is soooo much more of God that I know I need in my life. SO much more I want to be used of Him. And I know He will answer this cry of my heart.
For a few weeks I haven’t really known what more exactly I need in my journey. What does being ‘fearless’ mean to me, in my walk? What area of my life isn’t totally surrendered to God? I mean if you ask me to sell up everything I own and pack my bags and move to a place I’ve never been to before, then I’m your girl. If you want me to suffer from undiagnosed pain for years and years and not lose my Pollyanna disposition, then I’m your girl. If you want me to deal with weird family situations and for my husband and I to be the peace-keepers then, cool, I can do that. But what more do I need to be fully fearless? How is this gonna look in my life? Not that I think I have it all together – I do not – I am fully aware of many faults and many areas where I need more grace, more love and more of Him…But I just didn’t know what it meant for me to take this next step to be fearless. In every area of my life.
And now I do.
For me – being fearless is to take every thought captive and to not dwell on the possibilities and probabilities, that are not part of God’s picture for my life.
Being fearless is to say ‘God has my future and all the details already aligned’. And to mean it. Not for those to be easy words to say and not believe, but to fully believe those words.
Being fearless is to look back at all the ways in which God has provided for us – financially, practically, emotionally and to know He will not let us down, no matter what the future holds.
Do you see that the future for me is an area I’ve been holding back on God with? We know where we are until January 2014, and from then on, we don’t know what will happen job-wise, travel-wise……the thought of setting ourselves up in another country again and starting from scratch gives me heart palpitations from time to time. I’m being honest. The school I feel would be right for my kids back in NZ is a private school. BUT – if it is part of God’s plan – He will provide. And for me, right here, right now, I need to face the future fearlessly.
I need to face my present reality with being fearless too. Being fearless in the now is to say ‘Speak to me Lord Jesus everyday, use me in new and incredible ways to keep on what I am doing but to be more effective’. Love more people. Encourage more people. Spread joy into every avenue, into every corner of my life. To not dwell on me, but to focus on others.
Sometimes we hold onto these fears because as crazy at it sounds, holding them is like holding a comfort blanket. These fears keep us grounded and to be grounded is to know where we stand, to have things within our control. But I don’t want to miss out on more. On more peace and more comfort, that comes from the craziness of living a life totally surrendered to God, so I’m going fearless. I’m swapping my fears and my what ifs, for the kind of reassurance that can only come from the Lord. That comes from truly believing that when God calls He enables. For ‘I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me’ – Philippians 4:13.
Want to get out of the boat with me?